and the Deathless
by Gautam Sachdeva
reminiscence on the great Advaita sage, Nisargadatta
Maharaj's,devastating teachings on death.
I had recently read Nisargadatta Maharaj's
book, Consciousness and the Absolute, based on the final talks he gave
before he passed over. I loved reading the book; it was sharper than I Am
That (the book which made Maharaj famous, and regarded by many as a modern
spiritual classic on advaita), in a way. One got the distinct feeling that
as he was running out of time (Maharaj was dying of cancer), he wanted to
deliver the teaching in as crisp and concise a manner as possible. It was
laser sharp in its delivery. I used to mention to friends that sentences of
Nisargadatta came at you like golden arrows going straight into your heart.
However, my friend George perhaps put it more appropriately when he said,
"For me, it's like Maharaj was pumping bullets into me." For Maharaj was
always hard-hitting and to the point.
When a visitor asked him how he felt about having the disease, Maharaj
promptly replied, "... I came to the conclusion that whatever is happening
is in the consciousness. I told the consciousness, 'It is you who is
suffering, not I.' If consciousness wants to continue to suffer, let it
remain in the body. If it wants to leave the body, let it. Either way, I am
not concerned." Nothing could truly shake the foundations of the Absolute
state he was so rooted in.
One lazy Sunday morning over a cup of chai at a restaurant near the
Mahalakshmi temple, my dear friend Vikram asked me if I would like to visit
Nisargadatta's guru's samadhi, as it was only 10 minutes away. I was
pleasantly surprised that Siddharameshwar Maharaj's samadhi was so close by.
Of course, it would be great to pay one's respects to the sage whose
disciples themselves turned out to be lions of advaita - such as
Nisargadatta Maharaj and Ranjit Maharaj. Without hesitation, I readily
agreed, and off we went in a cab. In a short while, the taxi veered itself
through a narrow street and gradually a sense of 'measured' fear started
arising within me - like when you're walking on a lonely street late at
night knowing there is no one following you, but you still keep looking over
your shoulder. There was a part of me watching the fear and another part
experiencing it. It was strange. Soon, the taxi came to a grinding halt and
we got off. I realized my heart was now beating faster for some reason I was
not consciously aware of. I really could not understand what was going on.
We entered the courtyard and then my friend asked me to sit down on the
ledge and remove my shoes. And this was when all the chips began to fall
into place. For, when I raised my head to look up, my eyes landed on two
iron caskets lying about 40 feet away to the right, which served to act as
funeral pyres in which the wood was placed to cremate the dead.
And then I realized that we were in the Banganga cremation grounds. It was
on the same ledge that I sat 20 years ago, as a young boy, with my family,
watching my father's funeral pyre burning bright. Suddenly, my friend,
totally oblivious to the thoughts and memories swarming through my mind,
called out, "Look straight ahead, Gautam, not to the right." As I looked
ahead, not even 10 feet away, was Siddharameshvar Maharaj's samadhi.
I found it quite incredible that I was brought back to the same spot after a
gap of 20 years, by a teaching which taught exactly the opposite of what I
thought, when I was a 14-year-old boy. I thought that death was the end of
everything, story over; the damning physical evidence was right there,
before one's eyes. And here, a teaching that conveys, "you are not your
body" brings me back to the very same place. And it was so appropriate that
the place happened to be the cremation grounds! Had we been exposed to these
teachings at a young age, how much easier would we have found to deal with
the death of a loved one! Truly, India has such a rich spiritual tradition;
if only they taught advaita in schools today - it would make death far
easier to live with.
S.K. Mullarpattan, who had been Maharaj's translator for the longest period
of time, gave a speech at the gathering of Maharaj's devotees 13 days after
he entered mahasamadhi 25 years ago. In the speech, Mullarpattan said, "I
wondered quite often how an ordinary person like Maharaj could thrive
spiritually in a poor neighborhood like Khetwadi? Visiting him, I always
came to the crossing of two particular roads. They meet near Maharaj's
house. One road leads to the notorious redlight district of Bombay, while
the other heads for Maharaj's residence in 10th lane, Khetwadi.
"Reflecting about these roads, it dawned on me that their unique directions
and destinations signify two basic paths that a human being can travel. A
person can choose between the two. According to their inclination and
intention, one man can follow the path that leads to spiritual elevation;
while another may choose the second way and follow his base instinct,
desiring and fulfilling physical pleasure and happiness.
"We must remember that both people start off from the same basic stage.
Rooted in the mud and muck of a pond, the lotus blooms and thrives untouched
and above them."
Nisargadatta Maharaj's teachings have spread far and wide, and even impacted
today's leading contemporary teachers the world over. Eckhart Tolle, Dr
Wayne Dyer, Peter Russell, Adyashanti, have all been influenced by Maharaj's
teachings. One evening, at the dinner table with Eckhart Tolle in 2002, I
was discussing with him the 'vacuum' one senses when a loved one is no more
(hardly dinner table conversation!). For example, when you come back home
and you realize the person whom you were so accustomed to seeing is no
longer there and will no longer be, there is a sense of emptiness - a
feeling of something being sucked out of your environment. It could also be
the vacuum you sense when your pet passes away, or perhaps you lose
something valuable. And I told him in jest, "Eckhart, that's just the vacuum
of one person who has passed away. Can you imagine if all the people you
loved passed away at the same time? Instead of these pockets of vacuums,
there would be this huge vortex of a vacuum all around." He looked up at me
from his plate with his typical piercing gaze and said with a glimmer in his
eye, "That's when one will be enlightened!"
I found echoes of Maharaj in Eckhart's book, A New Earth, wherein he says,
"When forms that you had identified with, that gave you your sense of self,
collapse or are taken away, it can lead to a collapse of the ego, since ego
is identification with form. When there is nothing to identify with anymore,
who are you? When forms around you die or death approaches, your sense of
Beingness, of I Am, is freed from its entanglement with form: Spirit is
released from its imprisonment in matter. You realize your essential
identity as formless, as an all-Pervasive presence, of Being prior to all
forms, all identifications. You realize your true identity as consciousness
itself, rather than what consciousness had identified with. That's the peace
of God. The ultimate truth of who you are is not I am this or that, but I
Film-maker Woody Allen said in jest, "I'm not afraid to die, I just don't
want to be there when it happens." Maharaj was not afraid, and neither was
he there. He once said, "How can he (an astrologer or palmist) tell my
future, when I am not there at all?"
One couldn't say that Nisargadatta stared death in its face, for he simply
wasn't concerned. And therein lies a great teaching and teacher for us all -
one who was a living embodiment of all that he taught. In his own words, "Do
understand that only the dead can die, not the living. That which is alive
in you is immortal."
Nisargadatta Maharaj grew up almost without education, was a paan-beedi
shop-owner and went on to become one of the world's most widely recognized
and respected exponents of advaita.